WARNING THIS IS REALLY LONG AND PROBABLY BORING. I am pretty sure im an infp but what the hell if you think im not let me know haha. Im really unsure of my enneagram though. Help me out? This is a questionaire i found on personality cafe
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I am horrible at setting goals or things to work towards so nothing in that sense really motivates me. I guess knowing that I’m still so young and have a lot to learn about and discover is one thing to look forward too. I love learning about new things or more in depth about something. Knowing that by simply living i could to all of that is exciting i guess.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
Peace. Not necessarily world wide equilibrium, more like inner peace? Contentness? Confidence? Forming a meaningful bond with someone. Financially stability.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I dont want to be ignorant or act arrogant. I dont want to be an ant basically. I dont want to be incompetent. I dont want to unreasonably harm somebody. Being openminded/considerate is important to me. I also value respect, honesty, awareness, not being a jackass, and kindness.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Leaching off of other people, whether that be emotionally or financially. Losing someone i hold dear. Become the type of person i hate. Drowning in debt lol...
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I’d hope people see me as a decent person. Someone knowledgeable, reliable, and kind. But even if id want people to see me a certain way it doesn’t really matter because their perception of me is subjective. I could be good to one and evil to another, cant really help that.
I see myself as uncertain about a lot of things. I have a lot of doubts and actively try to find some sort of truth or reassurance. I am a really nice friendly person. A people pleaser but not a push over. Realistic minded but sometimes i get carried away by fantasies. I’d like to think im somewhat enlightened lmao?
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Best- having fun with friends and joking around. Completing a challenging task. Random nostalgia. Making people laugh. Lots of caffeine. Getting my paycheck
Worst- when im not doing anything. Upsetting people. Emotional congestion.
7. Describe how you experience each of:
a) anger; not often but when im angry im passive aggressive and i hate it which makes me ever more pissed off lol. I hate being mad because i can be really unreasonable. Im working on it though, i struggle with confrontation which never solves anything.
b) shame; i dont really experience shame that much tbh. I guess when i inconvenience someone i feel excessive guilty. But i try hard not to do so. I hate feeling like that so i make sure to take every measure possible to avoid it haha.
c) anxiety. I use to and still kind of get anxious over things that are out of my control. Id overthink a situation to a very unrealistic point and would just avoid. Im way better at accepting things now though thank god
8. Describe how you respond to each of:
a) stress; i get mad? It pisses me off more than freaks me out but i guess both. In the beginning if a stressful event i get overwhelmed but if it involves me doing something independently i can handle it very well because i become more focused? If it involves the needs of other people though im a mess and crumble when responsible for others
b) unexpected change; im pretty adaptable. It can be an inconvenience which makes me annoyed but i actually like testing how i handle it lol
c) conflict. Hate it. I get upset if i caused it and mad if others try and push it on me. I try so hard to avoid it but when blinded by lots of build up rage im ruthless
9. Describe your orientation to: How do you respond to these?
a) authority; generally i respect authority but only if its justifiable and not being used for selfish reasons. I think some sense of order in society is important but not too much because independence is important.
b) power. Depends how one uses their power. If its universally good than thats find. If its used for universally bad things thats not fine. I respect power and also fear it depending on the situation.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
I dont know. Its beautiful yet disgusting for the same reasons. Personally i think we should all make the most out of it while it lasts. We are all a bit selfish and selfless. I think thats fine and what makes us human. No matter what peoples religions or beliefs are, id say we shouldn’t leave everything up to fate. While many things are uncontrollable we should try and take our lives into our own hands and make the things we want happen for ourselves.
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Well my younger brother is autistic. Living with autism has effected me in a lot of ways, good and bad? My whole childhood and even with growing up my family had to constantly accommodate to his needs and deal with the judgement of others. When i was younger i kind of just accepted the way things were but as i grew a bit my thoughts started to change. I was mad and thought I didnt deserve to sacrifice so much of my life and get nothing in return. I thought my brother didnt deserve to be born with a disability that would affect his life so much. Others didnt deserve to be disrupted by his behavior. But lifes not fair and we really all cant win. Now, like when i was younger Ive just accepted this is how things are and now that im older and have the freedom to i can only work on rebuilding things ive lost and moving away from resentment. I was wrong about getting nothing because really i gained a lot of things like patience, respect, and unconditional love.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I dont trust that easily. In order for me to trust somebody they need to prove to me that they can be trusted. I dont that ive ever been betrayed or anything, it just makes sense to be a bit more careful than too trusting
13. List some of the traits you:
a) like; witty, nice, openminded, eager to learn
b) dislike most about yourself; passive aggressive, lack of confidence, reserved
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
Their perspective? A lot of people don’t try and put themselves in other peoples shoes. Whether some perspective on something is “wrong” or “right” i always like to consider it because it means something to them. Does that make sense?
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
If they insult me id be really confused as to why? I don’t get how people could actually do that to a stranger but i know people do. Maybe they are mad and its easier to insult a stranger than someone you actually know? Idk. They just have issues like all of us and idk them so i dont really care because i know i probably didnt deserve it.
If they compliment me id still be really confused but think of it as a nice gesture. It would make my day
16. What's something you are:
a) thankful you have; my brain and heart and a body lol. Decent air quality. For the most part a loving family and friends. My life experience
b) wish you could have? Money so i could do the things a want to and not worry. A real life hoverboard. A boyfriend to live life and grow old with